Category: 768

  • 2|1|60|8|50|30|5|100

    Sigil Baphomet

    Nov. 1999 Psalms 119: 121-128 “I have done justice and righteousness; leave me not to mine oppressors.” Nothing, I have nothing, it’s time to go. All promises are broken, my blood dripping fetid from inside. My heart grey and torn. There are no options left, my emotions are wasted. I took the path of  Teferith to Binah and fell through Daath. The… Continue reading "2|1|60|8|50|30|5|100"

  • 5|80|30 20|50|4|7|5

    1.24.99 Well, I ended up in a drunk’n stupor. Then the night lead me to a strange woman’s house. This seems to always happen in LA. Go out, a girl picks me up, I don’t know how I do it.  Now, the bad news: ERM died in 1994, he was slowly degrading health wise. The shit was getting pretty bad… Continue reading "5|80|30 20|50|4|7|5"

  • 8|50|60|5

    11.4.98 – The twisted nature of hope Four days and I will be gone, broken free from this cesspool of human waste and demonic fields. New York has always been a dream unrealized. Now it rises up before me. I have only one place to go, with one friend. Many swarm, however their twisted tongues reveal ill intention.  For the… Continue reading "8|50|60|5"

  • 132|90|90|24|90|90

    Nov. 1998 – This city use to have a magick about it. She carried her beauty encased in a heavy humid nights and cool shaded days. She pranced around for me, hoping I would be like her. I could never live up to her expectations. I followed and now I’m old, beaten down on the edge of life and nothing.… Continue reading "132|90|90|24|90|90"

  • 900|1|80-86

    Note:  This was in the middle of huge magickal battle between me and my former order. As I had been the magister they liked to use all their little black magick tricks, then blame them on me. This war lasted for one hundred and one days and my devout catholic Sifu, was in the middle of all of it with… Continue reading "900|1|80-86"

  • 114|126|54|18|54|24|30

    Nov. 1998 Note: I put this in here, because it was part of a pattern. The people mentioned in this letter were very close to the person I was. This pattern was a reoccurring pattern throughout my time in the abyss. I was running from the Italian mob. I had caught their head enforcer in pedo forums trying to get… Continue reading "114|126|54|18|54|24|30"

  • 3|1|40|100|50|90

    Sometime during 1998  I wrote  Samson Part I So strange, so strange, Samson has been shaved Like useless sun on petaled rose It fell that day, as it may, now what was long is gone So strange, so strange, hair to change A wave on shore gone in lore The oratory of pain morose and vein dries away in the… Continue reading "3|1|40|100|50|90"